Wednesday, 09 June 2010

  • :( I miss him

    I hate that he cant write me yet.
    This hurts my heart so bad. I am so lonely without.
    We used to spend every single second with each other and now I'm alone.
    :( Please come back.
    Why is Marine Corpse boot camp so much longer then every other branch's
    It really sucks.
    I just wish he could hold me.
    I feel like I'm all alone.

Monday, 07 June 2010

  • Left for bootcamp...

    This is painful.
    This is scary.
    This is... emotional.


    Feels like I just lost a huge part of me and my heart.
    He's gone. Left a half hour ago to boot camp. Staff Sergeant Martin came and got him and took him away from me.
    He hugged everyone... and then it was me and he would leave....
    He grabbed me and I didnt wanna let go. He started to and I knew it was time.
    I grabbed his hand and as he walked away his fingers slowly slipped away from mine.
    I looked at the ground crying and next thing I know I'm back in his arms.
    He came back to do it just one more time.
    He dragged me to the van and we were still holding eachother and we said our final see you soons.
    I have mixed emotions but it just hurts all over.

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

  • Prom in 9 DAYS!!!!!

    Im so EXCITED!!!!!!!!
     :D
    Mac is so annoyed that I'm hiding my dress from him. He's tried to sneak into my closet like 15 times. But its the WOW factor he'll ruin so he's knocked it off. I know hes just teasing, I dont think he'd see it. But he decided to be mean and he wont let me see his tux.. But he did let me see the colors of it so i could make sure we match. Its going to be amazing. Its at the Wrigley Mansion! that place is beautiful. :)

    Its gonna be the best night ever

Friday, 09 April 2010

  • I need advice.. Its an emergency

    My best friend, Stefanie, is dating Mike. He is enlisted in the Marine Corps with Mac and there leaving for boot camp together.. Mike and Stef dont always have the best relationship, but who does really?, Lately its been getting worse... And tonight.. Is the breaking point.
    They got in a really big fight and she told him that if he wants her to leave shes not coming back.. he told her to get the fuck out.. So she left his house.. She went for a walk with one of her friends and Mike went to her house to get all his stuff... including their prom tickets, which is on the 23th.. She went home and he was there. She knew he was too, so dont think he broke in or is a stalker. They got in another fight.. He kept touching her, she told him to stop, he wouldnt.. She hit him to get him away and he pushed her.. So hit him again and he grabbed the necklace she was wearing, the one he bought her and her favorite one, and broke it and then  put her in a CHOKE HOLD! until she was on the ground, thank god she didnt pass out.. And then he walked out.. Like nothing happened... Everytime something happens with the recruits everyone always turns to Staff Sergeant Martin because he is always their for his Poolies.. He will always help them no matter what.. I have half the mind to text him tonight or go see him tomorrow and explain what happened. Ive talked to Stef about telling him but obviously, shes not going to want to tell on him. I have been in a situation before where you don't want to tell on someone because you think its your fault even though its not.. I want to tell Staff Sergeant so bad but I don't know want to hurt Stef.. I know how it feels and she told me she doesn't want me to tell him.. I told her I wouldn't until she wanted me too.. But I'm not sure its the best thing.. Shes my best friend... and I just want her safe.. But I know someone who has been abused doesn't want the world to know... But someone.. PLEASE... just help me..

Saturday, 03 April 2010

  • 64 Days Until Bootcamp

    I cant help but be freaked out.. STILL!
    I wish I could just calm down and know he's gonna be perfectly fine, just far away.
    I know he loves me, and I know were gonna see each other again.
    64 DAYS! That is a lot.. I need to stop. Honestly Honestly, STOP.